If you think you might be suffering from PTSD, I recommend you review this checklist: Signs You Might Be Suffering from Complex PTSD.
As someone who suffered from PTSD, I found it useful. If too many of them ring a bell for you, what should you do? First,
… stop being brave. We should allow ourselves to feel compassion for who we were; that might not be easy, given how hard we tend to be with ourselves. The next step is to try to identify a therapist or counsellor trained in how to handle Complex PTSD
There is nothing wrong with being brave. It’s admirable in many ways. Just don’t let it get in the way of getting help.
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